chris. CROSS.

Screaming Bloody Murder

2011-02-17T21:43:00.003+08:00

God's got a plan for me.

Guess what. During CNY I went back to my room at the residence to get some stuff. My room mate's stuff had already been cleared. In case you've forgotten, I have a pure native Chinese from the motherland as a room mate, and upon his being assigned my roommate, I stopped staying there and have yet to spend a night in my room. So, I thought that my Chinese room mate had gone back to China for Chinese New Year. Somehow, it wasn't the case. I don't know how. It's like you see Garfield and a Lasagne in the first picture of a garfield comic strip and you expect Garfield to eat it. But BAM! He starts masturbating. But to my defense, I bet all of you would've thought the same. You racist bastards.

Turns out, he's finished his course. From the timetable he left on his cork board, it seems that he was doing an english course. I had to learn that from his cork board because, when I asked him what course he was doing, he replied:

"Sorry, I no understand."

Wow. And he's done in 3 months.

I feel pretty bad that I didn't get to say goodbye to him. Technically, we were roommates. And now he's gone. Never will I get to know his name. Never will I know how on earth he managed to stink the whole room up. Now all I can do is picture him waving goodbye as he flies off, saying:

E.T go home.

Anyway. The HELP shuttle busses are really shitty nowadays. The drivers tend to idle at the main block for like 20 minutes before carrying on with their route. I can see why it's perfectly normal to require a 20 minute break after 5 minutes of driving from one block to another. AND BACK. Tiring shit right there. I think we should buy the drivers lunch for their hard work and dedication.

I mean. You can't really blame them for being so demotivated to do their job. I myself can't think of a possible incentive for bus drivers. Like, if they drive their asses off; shed blood, sweat, and tears in steering that beast; or even if they are the best damned bus drivers in the world, what's in it for them? A promotion? Instead of a HELP bus, they get to drive a Rapid KL Bus (Or known to bus drivers as THE big R). Nice.

I mean. There's a reason why you don't see games centered on bus drivers on facebook. You've got Restaurant City, Farmville, Bla bla bla, but NOT Bus Street or something. How on earth do you level up? Please. Even being a werewolf gives you better prospects at moving up in life.

Well I'm gonna tell you one thing;

I don't got the patience or the time.

Nightswimming

2011-02-07T03:27:00.004+08:00

Deserves a quiet night

Brace yourselves.

I'm up. It's 3am and I'm up. I stayed up to watch the Chelsea-Liverpool match, and now, I can't sleep. I don't like my head. It thinks too much.

I think I enjoyed 2010. My brain slept the year away, up until December, when Edexcel brought it back from the dead. I sometimes wish that I would care less. I sometimes wish that I could stop worrying. I sometimes wish I could forget. I am my own anal friend.

Fun fact number one. If you have, in any way, crossed me, I believe, I would still remember it. I'm incredibly bitter and incredibly good at being so. In actual fact, I hate a lot of the people around me. The only difference is that I rarely show anything. But no. I bet you'd bet that I'd blow someday. Well, as my discretion would have it, I would only if I don't need you.

I'm a hypocrite. And I hate hypocrites. My hypocrisy knows no boundaries.

I have never changed the "about me" on my blog because it has always held true. No shit. Much unlike my banner, my not changing it is not due to laziness. On that note, I think Im going to change my banner soon.

ANYWAY.

CNY was crap. Why do we even celebrate it? Most celebrations are rooted in very primitive beliefs and traditions. I believe that the exchanging of Christmas presents manifests from the joy from which man derives from receiving presents; I believe that hindus pierce themselves to inflict pain onto themselves, "sacrificing" themselves to the gods in a way, and I believe the muslims sacrifice cows etc, frankly because people need to eat, and the cows aren't going to slaughter themselves. Pardon my misinformation, I choose to believe that things are so, for the sake of this post. But now. How on earth did man see the need to exchange money. Or oranges. If you had oranges, and I had oranges, I might steal your oranges- falling prey to greed- or I might hide my oranges and guilt trip you into sharing your oranges. But never would I think of exchanging our oranges. Never would I think of exchanging my packet of 10 dollars with your packet of 10 dollars. The only reason I would think of giving you my 10 dollar packet is the anticipation of you giving me one with 20.

So, there you have it. CNY is celebrated either for:

1) nothing

2) shortchanging.

It's either so profound that it's stupid, or just simply, pure evil.

I was sick on the first day of Chinese New Year. I got very little angpao this year. I had no new clothes. This year's CNY was horrible.

OOOH. crap. Better sleep. Nights.

I'm not sure all these people understand.

Kids.

2011-01-30T13:53:00.001+08:00

Control yourself;

Take only what you need from it.

The next time my blog goes dead. It would be because my penis had been severed. by a pencil sharpener. Or any cutting tool of an equal or smaller size. And I would either be dead or playing with my new toy, assuming, of course, that I were forced to undergo a sex change operation.

There. Motivation to never stop again. I need to write continuously. Before my english deteriorates so badly that I would appear jaundiced. Of course I wouldn't. But I'd seem more yellow, more chinese, in all your minds.

There aren't many outlets to write. Especially since I'm only doing 4 subjects; none of which require much writing. And there's only that much thought that can go into that little stupid wall post or status. And only that many friends to bug on facebook. And only that many things to comment on.

Anyway. I just finished my exams. I finally feel like my brain's alive again. I've been pretty much dead through 2010. That's what you get if you start college in July. Your brain doesn't kick back on just like that. It takes time. In my case, it took 6 months and an exam. Of course, I had National Service for the first 3 months. But who am I kidding.

Exams were horribly timed. I would much rather Edexcel take away Chinese New Year than Christmas AND New Year's. And what's best, I have another 3 to go through. I will not be able to enjoy my December holidays until December 2012. Provided, of course, the world doesn't end. And I don't die before that. If I do, I ask for nothing but that last line be quoted repeatedly to bear testimony of my prophetic powers. Name me a prophet and start a new religion.

I had this dream a week or so ago. I was sitting for a paper. A-levels paper. Important as ever. Not in college, but in my paternal grandparents' house. And out on the street, Coldplay was playing. I had to choose between A-levels. Or Coldplay. I fucking chose Coldplay. I'm not proud of myself but that's what my sub-concious did. What's funny is that a few days ago, someone told me that Coldplay was coming down in May. Edexcel exams are in May. Yay it's going to happen! OH fuck it might happen. I get to see Coldplay. I fucking might miss my paper :O

I curse a lot.

Next time.

You were a child.

Halo.

2010-11-13T21:42:00.005+08:00

Remember those walls I built;

Baby, they're tumbling down.

Life's been really great. I always have something to look forward to, and things to look back on in elation. Seriously, great things have been happening to me.

Just last thursday I went to Mid Valley after my class ended at 10. I had already planned on skipping maths since I would have had a 4 hour break before my next class, and I'm lazy like that. Besides, I had some errands to run. I left Mid Valley at about 2. At least I planned to. Scrap that. At least I tried to.

I paid for parking and headed off to my car. I then realized that I had no idea where I was parked. Luckily, my car has this button on the remote control that, when pressed, makes the car wail in the most annoying of high-pitched alarm sirens. So I walked around pressing that button, over and over again, while walking through one floor. Had no luck in finding my car, so I walked to another floor. No luck again, so I tried ANOTHER floor. After about 20 minutes, still clueless about the whereabouts of my car, I revisited the floors I had already tried looking for my car on. I went to all floors, over and over again, but with no luck; no alarm going off; no sight of that gay maroon car.

The parking attendant saw me countless times, going in and out of the parking area. He asked to see my ticket. I took it out and whad'ya know.

It's written on the ticket.

I was parked in Zone A and I had been walking through Zone A, B, C, D etc etc, looking for my car.

Just when I thought I've exhausted my one week's worth of stupidity, I found my car. Really.

I mean, just when I thought I had been stupid to my personal max, I realized that I had NOT actually maximized my stupidity. By pressing the button over and over again, I had run the battery dry. What makes it interesting is that, without my remote control, I can NOT open my car door without sounding the alarm.

And my car will not start with the alarm on.

Nothing greater than having your security system turn on you.

Well, luckily, the guy who wanted my parking spot was in a City as well, so he borrowed me his battery to unlock my car :D But that was after 30 minutes of trying to figure out a way out of that pickle.

I left Mid Valley at 3.30 (Y)

Went to Pandan Kapital to cut my hair. I changed my remote control batteries there and they cost me bloody 24 ringgit.

Just when I thought it was over.

My remote control wasn't functioning still.

And somehow, some way, my security system acted up on me again. Even when I did not arm the alarm. I couldn't start the car. So I sat there, in that one car in the dark and eerie underground car park, trying to figure out why.

I finally replaced the batteries in the remote control and that fixed everything. Stupid woman couldn't read + and - properly.

JUST WHEN YOU THINK IT'S OVER.

Stupid as I am, despite having a back sensor that goes teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet once i've gone too close, I backed up into the wall.

The power of not thinking. It makes for great experiences.

Hm. Let's see what else hath chanced.

On Friday, I woke up a little late for class. To make things worse, it was Chem with Kana (Y). I "rushed" to College and reached the main block at 10.10. Reached class at 10.30 because of the stupid shuttle bus.

Anyway, she didn't even ask why I was late. I was actually late because of a fallen tree on the MRR II O:)

That was what I was scheming to tell her on my way to college. It was plausible since it rained that morning. But since she didn't ask, It seemed as if she didn't care. Or so I thought.

I was texting in class, handling a rather important situation. My phone was placed on the table, hidden by the person in front of me. There was no way Kana could have seen it. But she could have seen my eyes looking at something on the table. And she did.

She slowly moved to the right side of the room, her eyes fixed on me. Seeing her do that, I slowly inched my phone toward the left, hiding the phone from her view. It was as if her eyes and my phone were at the opposite ends of her line of vision, moving in unison, in opposite directions. I knew she was trying to see if I was texting, and she knew I was trying to hide my phone. And it was all happening in 2 seconds. It was that awkward.

Until she finally asked:

"What are you doing?"

At that time, I knew I was screwed.

"I already tolerated you for coming late for class, now you're texting in my class. GET OUT NOW."

There it was. The "I already tolerated you for coming late for class". Ahh. Just when you thought menopause was reversible.

I got kicked out of Kana's class.

That was that. Came 30 minutes late and left 30 minutes early (Y)

Hmm. what else, what else.

Oh yeah.

I'm in love :) With Tan Su-Yin. With her, everything just feels so right.

I know. My great life seems to have more unfortunate episodes than happy occurrences.

Well.

No matter what, life's going to suck someday. You just got to find the one who can colour your world. The one you just long to be with after a bad day. The one who's there for you. And I've found her :)

I swore I'd never fall again;

But this don't even feel like falling.

Flowers In The Window

2010-11-08T21:36:00.001+08:00

There was no one there to hold,

Before I swore;

That I will be alone forever more

I shall start blogging again.

Lets watch the flowers grow :)

Look at us now, flowers in the window;

It's such a lovely day.

And I'm glad you feel the same.

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room.

2010-09-24T03:22:00.003+08:00

It's 3.30am. I'm at the common area with Jamie. I went to bed at 11pm yesterday. Wait till I tell you how.

So I went to bed at 11pm. I was sleeping soundly until someone knocked on my door. Before I got the door, it was opened from the outside. Creepy as it was, I wasn't scared. My mind was still asleep. With your mind going at 1/1000th of what it normally does, all you have is stupidity.

It was a lady from the residence office.

I have a new room mate.

They woke me up at 1 to tell me I have a new Chinese room mate. And by Chinese I mean from the motherland.

I just woke up so I took it with a smile, my primal stupidity kicking in. Only while I was sitting on the bed, gradually gaining sobriety from slumber while I watched my roomie unpack, did I realize how fucked up I was.

I waited for him to go out then I called Jamie.

"Can you stay up with me tonight? In Starbucks? Or McD? I don't want to sleep in my room."

And she's still here with me now. ILY JAMES! :)

I want to go home :(

I don't want to stay in the residence anymore! :(

I will NOT sleep in the same room with a complete stranger.

OH OH OH and to make it more interesting, I have a Chemistry test tomorrow. (Y)

WHY CANT JPA PAY FOR SINGLE ROOMS. GRR.

Back.

2010-09-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

Tonight I Can Write

Those were the words that preluded a giant leap in my life. And they reverberated through time, space, and my mind. Echoing, time and time again, only reminding me of the obvious lament that I hide and cover up with pride. The lament I never had. Some might ask, what exactly is this leap. I would not disclose, or maybe I would, but in no honestly, just to throw you off. But maybe I would tell you the truth in anticipation of your disbelief.

I think the biggest mistake I ever made was taking English Literature.

It's been awhile since I last blogged. I think part of it was because whenever I come back to my blog, with all my enthusiasm, I read the first few lines of my previous post, and that enthusiasm dies. 'Tis true, life goes in circles. No, life is never good all the time; yes, you will have bad days and no, you should never record and proclaim your elation when things go your way; because when things go wrong, it rubs itself in your own face. You salt your own wounds.

You know, before I left for the holidays, I think two mosquitoes flew into my room. While I was gone, they were fcking behind my back. The proof? When I came back there were like tens of baby mosquitoes. And they're so annoying. I sit down to study and they buzz around me, then causing me to waste time standing in the middle of the room with a book in my hand while looking at the walls for the contrasting black of the mosquitoes against the white of the walls, squinting and then lunging at every glimpse of a mosquito, only to lose sight upon moving. Every once in awhile, I succeed, and utter the words "bitch." in in-your-face-celebration.

I have class tomorrow from 3-5. 3-5 on a Friday. Sucks doesn't it? I might just skip it. But Is that attitude going to land me in cambridge? OH HELL NO. The odds are against me even if I do go, so, what the heck. right? It sucks to be stupid.

Nights.

Yesterday Threw Everything At Me.

2010-08-12T01:17:00.005+08:00

It's time to tell you honestly,

So we can alter history;

You are first on my list.

Disclaimer: Do not read if you are currently hating life; slogging daily just to complete your homework; having an exam in a week's time or merely NOT having a holiday.

Life's great.

Last Friday was the last day of college, at least for the following 3 weeks. Attended the UN meeting right after chemistry ended. Then I went to One Utama with Adele because Zara had a sale. HAR HAR at the end of the day she bought nothing from Zara. But I shall take the higher ground and refuse to comment as to why because I am awesome =) My uncle fetched us back to the residence. I packed all my crap in 5 minutes and then we headed off to Subang. Had dinner there and went back home after that.

On Saturday I had dinner at some thai restaurant in the middle of the jungle. The place was named "Vegetable And Fish Farm". HAHAHAHAHAH. Asians are the worst at giving names. But I must say, it's aptly named. The whole restaurant (the size of which can accommodate 1000 patrons) was on a lake, from which all their fish was caught, and you can see fishes the size of full grown cats swim about.

My camera ran out of battery so I don't have lots of pics of the place.

I need a haircut. But I don't quite know what to do with it. I feel like leaving it long like Julian Casablancas or Alex Turner for that grungey-fck-it-I-don't-quite-care look. But that will leave me looking like shit at the meantime while my full head of hair's still growing. crap.

On Sunday I headed off to Singapore. FYI, I am STILL in Singapore =D

I'm pretty lazy to blog about my trip so I'll take a rain check on it lah. All I know is that life's great =D

But things go in circles don't they? =/

nites.

And I will run with you;

Sunlight will break into my eyes.

Down River.

2010-08-02T00:35:00.004+08:00

Finally,

We have seen some things;

Some awfully nice,

Some dreadfully bad.

Last week wasn't too good. Really. I shall henceforth refer to it as emo week #1. Maybe it was the running, maybe it was the boredom, maybe it was this, maybe that, but I felt a little familiarity lingering around me. I must be happy. I must be care free. Bitch.

Still had its moments though :)

There you have it. The famous one-liner-smiley. Used to hate it. Used to think it was the lamest thing ever. but. I used to be a lot of things. People change :) Not that I don't still find it lame though.

Lesson 1: Never yell a bad word. A whole bunch of us were heading back to KPD from Rotiman. Somewhere in our conversation, Nic pointed out the fact that Jamie had a "sohai" face. She was walking about 30 metres ahead of us and I wanted to call her, so I yelled out "OI SOHAI!"

Two guys walking in front of me turned around and looked at me.

WHOOPS.

That's why I don't speak Chinese. God made me a banana for a reason. If I try to interfere with his most perfect creation, he will not be happy, and he will give me a sign. Like two angry chinese people.

Okay calm down. I'm joking, thee pious people.

Went to One Utama on Thursday because Jamie finally decided to go for the MAD Charity Show, and did not have anything to wear.

Friday was awesome. Well not really. But let me just speak in context okay? I was part of the ushering crew for the MAD Charity Show. It was fun =D I reached Sunway Pyramid at 3 and decided to walk around before leaving for Ministry of Sound. At 4 I walked to MOS through the parking lot of the hotel which was overlooking the water park. When I looked out I saw what I thought were a bunch of sluts in the water park, after much deliberation, only then did I conclude that, they were, in fact, Tokyo Hotel.

Atta and Adele arrived a lil later. Then we went around trying to catch a glimpse of Tokyo Hotel's soundcheck. Adele was all "I used to like them." and "If this was 4 years ago, I'd be stoked" but she couldn't hide her "lets take pics! and post it on FB!" love for them.

Anyway. I must say. People look better clad in short, tight dresses =D

The night was kinda exciting. Halfway, I was asked to follow this celebrity, Miss Ainul, because she was supposed to perform that night and they wanted to know where she was at every second.

So when she was at the bridge overlooking the dancefloor, I was there; when she moved to the little balcony in front of the bar, I was nearby, and when she was dancing, I was watching. Hahaha. Serious shit.

I think the show was much more fun than the after party though :/

Maybe it was the company. Adele and Atta didn't get in cause they're underaged, Nic had to go back early, and Jamie said she didn't feel like going in because there wasn't anywhere to sit in the club.

Well, in hindsight maybe I should've stuck with Su Yin. HAHAHA.

Nothing much happened on Saturday.

Sunday. Nothing much too la.

Oh oh oh. Did you know that a morning in the cemetery, a wild imagination, an empty pool, and a dark night is a wickedly eerie combination? My night swim was a major failure, and so were my testicles.

There. Last week for you =D

Today was kind of fun. Class ended at 10am =DDD I came back after class and stayed in until it was time for lunch. The others went off to One Utama but I was too lazy -.-

For lunch I went gallivanting near Bangsar Village. There are super cool restaurants there. I had the nicest lunch I've ever had around here =D

Got back by 4 because I had something to attend to. After that I went for cake because I didn't have time for cake before that T.T Went with Adele, and, feeling guilty, we both decided that we should go for a jog after that. Wait, nonono, the jog was to exhaust Adele so that she could sleep at night because. she. drank. coffee. on. a. school. night. OMG OMG OMG.

People get so wild.

But never did I know that walking leisurely at a comfortable pace while talking crap, to Bangsar Village and back, constituted jogging. Well It was sort of a work out la since we ended up walking for 1 hour 40 minutes straight. Hahaha. 3o minutes my ass.

When I got back, I showered, changed and went to One Utama for a movie with my parents. Despicable me =D Now it's 1.36am and I'm still up. Crap.

Cause time will tell us nothing,

I'll take a chance on something.

Let Me Out.

2010-07-28T22:53:00.005+08:00

Yea, let me out;

I don't have time for people dragging me down.

It's been a long day. I just got back about two hours ago from KLCC, Pavilion, Sungei Wang, Times Square and KL Sentral.

Long story.

In the end Serene didn't ffk me =D We watched Predator. Holy crap I think Inception has ruined everything for me. When we're presented with a lesser movie, we tend to compare, and what we find lacking is blown way out of proportion. It's never good to compare. On or off screen.

Walked all the way from Pavilion to Times Square just to send her off. I am such a gentlemen =D. Then I had my dinner at Delifrance in Sungei Wang. At last, proper spaghetti =D You know, I saw someone I know. And that someone and her friends were standing right next to my table. I just stared at my food and prayed to God that she didn't notice me, to avoid the awkward "who're you here with?"

People should respect solitude. Without it, all the great people would not have been great, and all the great things done, would either not be great, or not be done.

Then I went over to KLCC to jalan-jalan a little before heading back to college. Got on the train and headed back soon after that.

Fui Teng called me in the train. Apparently SABKL RCS just had its AGM today. And apparently, the successor of my successor is Jeng Yee =D Congrats! Haha. Speaking of which. Serene, history has shown that you and I will end up together <3

HAHAHHAHAHHAHA.

Moving on.

Hm. Speaking of that.

Apparently I have to move on. Or so I have been told. I don't quite know how the have was intended though. Maybe it was a should kind of have, or maybe it was the "You haven't done it? omg you HAVE to do that or else." kind of have. Why do people think they know me?

And apparently, my taste in girls is rather peculiar. Adele told me so and Wern Xin, Nic, Ushana, and Serene all sorta confirmed it. Crap. Bye bye fitting in T.T

HAH! It's never a problem with me. The world's just screwed up. My taste's fine =D

That's the basis of a happy life. A large grave of a cupboard.

Where was I? Oh ya. Train. For some reason, I got off at KL Sentral instead of the Bangsar LRT station. I was about to leave the platform when I went "wth am I doing here?" O.o My brain lapsed for awhile. A few more times and it would be certain that I'm relapsing. sigh. relapsing. And by relapsing I mean lapsing for a few times, and not the relapse kind of relapsing. heeeeeeeh. suckers.

I conceal so well.

Well, so I waited for the next train, got on, and got off at Bangsar. I make myself proud =)

*update*

The last thing you want to see when you click "publish post" is "Safari quit unexpectedly."

Waiting on.

Waiting for someone to feel the same;

Waiting for someone who can talk straight;

And it's getting late.

Ragoo.

2010-07-27T23:51:00.004+08:00

I wana say;

here's to me going to change the world.

I was supposed to go for a jog with Jamie and Kah Wei at 6 just now. But it looked like it was about to rain so we took a rain check. Stayed in to read in bed instead. The World According to Garp =D

Anyway, today has been rather lifeless. You would think that if classes end at 4, I would have very little time for both leisure and homework. But when there's nothing to do for leisure, and no will to do homework, all you have is a butt load of time.

Had dinner at 9.30pm. Wasn't really hungry and my roomie got me an ice cream cup, so yeah.

Watched the end of Star Trek after dinner.

My last class ends at 12 tomorrow. I'm catching some movie with Serene some time tomorrow, some where. Details have yet to be decided on, and she might just ditch me. In which case, I shall entertain myself by treating myself to a nice lunch x) And a nice dinner afterwards. It sucks when you're the only one with all the time in the world.

I feel like talking to you. How are you? But then again, you're a stranger. sigh.

That's it Chris, hardball!

-.-

*update!

You know the spammers on Msn? I think they're getting kinda smart. Now their automated responses are smarter.